December 2008
12 posts
I don't know where we are going now.
I’m starting to love you. It’s freaking scary because I’m afraid I’m going to hurt you again, I’m afraid I’ll get hurt. Yesterday night, I was lying in bed and I was thinking about you. I know where we went wrong: the lack of communication. We talked a lot, we really did, but we didn’t in real life. When our paths crossed we didn’t talk, we kept on...
I know one day we will sleep for days.
I’ve been thinking about my new year’s resolutions. I make them each year and each year I don’t live up to them. Time for a change.
-Exercise more. This is to be found every year on the top of my list. -Think before I talk. Especially in face-to-face talks. -Study more. -Do things I want to and stop doing things I don’t want to aka be a little more selfish. -Stay in touch...
It's not easy to be me.
Last night in bed I wondered if it wasn’t time to tell my Mum about you. I thought about it and decided it wouldn’t hurt. Today we were alone for about 2 hours, the perfect chance to tell her everything. I didn’t, I couldn’t. I don’t know why. Maybe I think it’s exciting my parents don’t know anything about you? Or maybe I don’t want them to know...
It's just a matter of time.
-I get pissed when I read something one of my friends wrote when I haven’t spoken to that person in a long time. I feel so stupid for being pissed at her, I mean come on. Though I can’t help it. She sucks because I haven’t heard from her in more than a week. -He’s too sweet. Seriously. I should tell him more often. Make him blush like he makes me blush. Yeah. -My shoulder...
Ladies shoudn't be messed with.
Stop talking and making me smile. I’m supposed to be pissed off at you. Fucker.
Everyone's a letdown, it just depends on how far...
You suck. You can’t stand it when I say you’re not a real man, but honestly? You’re not a real man, you’re just a kid like me. I know it’s a touchy subject for you in times like these, but you know I like to tease you. I’ve already said it a couple of times. Asshole. You know I love you, or so I hope. I should really bring it up some time soon. I was planning on...
You fuck me over with the lights on.
This silence is driving me nearly insane. Is this some test? I don’t know if I can handle tests like this. You make me so scared and happy at the same time, and I can’t handle it. Not one bit. Especially in the evening. When I wander towards my room and see my laptop being there on my desk, doing nothing just being there, I feel awkward and turn around to leave the room. I want to talk...
You're crashing, but you're no wave.
I am growing up, and I start noticing it more frequent every day. When I was little I got my dog, most of my cats, my horse and now they’re all old so that must mean I’m getting old too. I joke about it a lot, but it also scares me. It’s getting time I start thinking about what I want to do for a living, which university I want to go to. It’s freaking scary. Some days I...
I know it makes no sense.
He can make me smile like it’s the easiest thing in the world.
He: “You know, I dreamed about you.” Me: “What was it about then? Was I some crazy-ass psycho?” He: “No. We were coloring Mickey Mouse. What does that mean?” Me: “I have no idea, maybe you need to take your pills?”
He thought I looked good in pink, I told him I didn’t own...
Houston, we've got a problem.
I do not know what’s going on. I’m excited. For what? I do not know where this excitement is going, I do not know where it is going to stop. I just hope. If I am feeling what I think I am feeling I sure as hell hope you’re feeling the same, I really hope that with whole my heart. I would not be surprised if you want to hurt me, it’s only fair after I did it twice to you....
Why are you messing with me?
Sometimes I’m a little bit rude, sometimes a little bit too rude. Like today. I was picking up my brother at school together with my mum and sisters and I saw a girl standing there I see almost every Saturday. She looks a bit dorky, and her dad is weird, but nothing too serious. Now, she was standing there and my sister suddenly said: “omg! I know her from in Velm!” and I’m...
The ocean, for you.
I want everyone I know to be as happy as I am.